an open letter to my exes

aspy xoxo
15 нояб. 2018 г.
3 мин. чтения

ree — take a heartbreak and find something magical in yourself

***So side note, about a week ago at a college night that I go to a girl shared that she was having a hard time after a break up, and it was just so that I was in the process of writing this blog post. So for any girls reading this or even guys, I hope give yourself the chance to let your beautiful heart heal.

Dear Exes,

Now i'm not here to bring up any bad memories or open up any doors. I just want to say I forgive you and thank you. And trust me its taken a long time to feel the way I do, so I truly mean it.

I forgive you for not being the best version of yourself, but I thank you for loving me to the best of your abilities at the time.

I realize you were not your best self, we were both growing and on this crazy journey of life. I understand that you've probably grown as a person since, cause I know I sure have. I realize that what we considered love then is probably a whole lot different then now at least it is for me.

Nonetheless despite the pain, abuse, and toxicity, I thank you. Thank you for sharing some of my best memories with me. Thank you for allowing me to be apart of your family, and to know them. I can't tell you how much I grew to love your sweet family, they are truly amazing. Thank you for the laughs, memories, and butterflies, and first date jitters. I thank you for being part of my journey regardless of us not working out. No matter what happened between us just know that I cared for you, and will continue to wish blessing on you. And I hope you still think back on our memories and giggle because I do.

Thank you for teaching me what its like to be in love, and making me SO excited to love the right person someday. Thank you for teaching me to open up to someone, and how to be vulnerable. It took me a long time to be okay with that, but I got to know how much you get to know someones true self. Despite the heartbreak that potentially comes with being vulnerable, you can't just be in constant fear because then you'll never experience love. So thank you for teaching me to just take the risk. Thank you for teaching me what I want in a relationship and what I don't, because love is a learning process. Our relationship taught me how I need to be loved, and what I need as a person. Thank you for allowing me to grow as a person in the relationship. I could not have grown if it weren't for you, I needed these experiences. I first started dreaming about living in California in our relationship, and I finally did it. I really learned a lot about myself in our relationship, and its allowed me to follow my dreams.

Thank you for teaching me the faults in myself, and what I needed to work on in myself. I realized faults in myself that I wasn't proud of. I really learned what kind of girlfriend I want to be. Thank you for teaching me when its time to let go for my own sake, I know it was for the best. Theres a difference between fighting for love and fighting for someone to love you, I learned that.Thank you for teaching me what its like to feel at the very bottom, and have build my strength to find myself again. Thank you for the heartache that made me find my worth in myself, and realize others need to see that too. I used to be endlessly searching for my worth In you when I should have been searching in God and myself, and that wasn't fair to you.Thank you for teaching me the strength that I did not know I had.

Thank you for allowing me to show you the depths of my heart and soul. Thank you for getting to know me. Im glad to have known you.

Lastly I hope life is treating you well. I hope our relationship taught you as well. I hope your next relationship you think back on ours, and fix the faults we had. I hope your next girlfriend experiences you at your best self, and that its absolutely magical. I hope your relationship flourishes, and your able to love like God hopes for. I hope you achieve everything you ever envisioned for yourself. I really hope you have an abundance of happiness!

Thank you for being apart of my journey to make me who I am today. Cheers to growing as people!!!