homesickness sucks

here's a very fall senior pic

So, college is not all sunshine and rainbows. This weekend I have just felt pretty blah, and just not myself. And to make things worse this is the second time writing this because the first one deleted. So its just ironic that my blog was about how i'm already feeling down. But since this is my personal blog I want to be as real with y'all as possible, cause this is my vent for feelings ya feel. I want to address what i'm feeling throughout college, cause I know theirs others feelin the same feels!

But y'all homesickness is a real deal. During my senior year all I wanted to do was leave Amarillo, I couldn't wait to get out of there. And while thats still true, and I don't regret my decision to leave. It doesn't change the fact that I miss that small little town, with no trees, smells like cow poop occasionally, has the best damn sunsets you'll ever see, and has my heart. The place I call home sweet home.

I didn't quite consider that when my favorite season came around I would miss the pumpkin patch with my dad, the fall scents my mom had in the house 24/7, her making my favorite soups, cuddling up and watching all the halloweentowns with my befriends, chilly football games, painting pumpkins, and all my favorite fall festivities. I didn't realize I'd crave a sharky's burrito so bad, or my fav tea from nobilitea that I just can't seem to make right, driving around with my best friends jamming, or even just driving and being familiar with where I was. I didn't realize just how bad i'd miss my home.

But even more than I miss the place, I miss the people. But next week or the weeks after, God will align something amazing for me, and it will be worth being so far away. It will be worth missing my little sisters games, or when she loses another tooth. It will be worth missing my dads birthday and not getting to celebrate with him, it will be worth not being able to get icecream and movies with my mom when her and her bf broke up, it will be worth not being able to help my stepmom plan her and my dads wedding, it will be worth not being able to be there personally with my friends to help with there boy problems. Missing out will all be worth it, because I truly feel like im right where God wants me to be. It doesn't make it any easier though, when your in this funk.

But on the bright side TFA (traffic free azusa) is good, I get to meet and collaborate with amazing brave woman to fight for such a wonderful cause. Also the event I'm helping with a trunk-or-treat, is coming up and i'm so excited to get to hang with some local kids, I think I did good on my philosophy mid-term so woot woot, Im officially a ham mocking college kid cause my wonderful grandma got me a hammock, also my professor has these bible study-is things at her house, which is decorated so stinking cute and its easily become one of my highlights of the week. Oh and I showed Mackie the movie Stardust, she had never seen it like whatttttt, and if you haven't either watch it on Netflix, and thank me later!

So anyways life's got its ups and downs, and although I've experienced some downs this weekend, i'm grateful that my life is mostly ups! Looking forward to Monday, the start to a new week, and hopefully leaving this funk behind. Adios weird vibes!

I hope your weekend was fulfilling, and whether you Netflix marathoned, or had a night out, I hope you had a good weekend! And if you had an ehh weekend like me, we're in this together, and I hope Monday is good fresh start to a new wonderful week for you as well!

lastly comment your fav fall thing cause i'm really trying to fall in this SoCal heat, and what you do to treat-yo-self when you feeling down <3 Oh & if your feeling like it let me know if my next blog should be about my current fav songs, movies, food places, and just all my favs rn!

Bye loves thx for reading my rant,

Aspy

My moms chicken and dumpling soup is too good

Me & my hammock & a blog to look forward to