ups&downs

One of my fav study/chill spots on Trinity Lawn. Hopefully Engstrom lawn after we win the hall games this weekend ;)

So my whole college experience as far as school goes has been rough. I hit a rough patch, with trying to adjust to this new life, balance friends, and still be a good student. Now I'm a English major, and I'm not your typical English major either... I don't like to read all the time, I think Shakespeare is boring, and I'm not fascinated by the writers that should fascinate me. Up until today I felt pretty discouraged about this whole English thing, cause I'm in sophomore/junior classes competing with people who are writers and will probably be published writers someday or professors. Like c'mon give me a break smarty pants.

I made a 75 on my first ever college paper, and if that’s not a kick in the stomach to your pride then idk what is. I‘ve always thought school was easy, and I've been hard on myself at times but never really had to in high school because like I said its always been relatively easy to me. So I had officially treaded into unknown waters, college is a whole new ball game.

Also I just have felt very out of place, I'm pursuing English to prepare me for law school, which everyone advised me was so good to do and so helpful. But I haven't met anyone else going to law school, so then it left me wondering did I pick right? What are all the other pre law kids majoring in? So pretty much the past few days i’d been questioning everything I had planned for the next four years of my life. kinda stressful right?

So of course I did the only I can do, discuss my troubles with God and my family. My dad assured me that I'm strong girl and have to push through the grind, that I'm no stranger to working hard. He said it might not be fun but I had to look at where I want to be to get through where I am now. He's right 99% of the time. My mom also assured me that I would be just fine, and to take it one day at a time, that it’s just one class. She's also almost always right. My step mom said that I could do this and I have so much support, so many people are rooting for me. I needed to hear that.

So taking some more of my dads advice I woke up and clothed myself in a positive attitude, and todays been a great day in class.

I had the opportunity to witness a English professor panel where my class got to ask them questions about the English major. I was given so much clarity, just that extra "you got this" that I needed.

Since then class has been good, I had a new found motivation and attitude.

Also, I went to a meeting about anti human trafficking in the Azusa and La areas. AND WOW I HAVE FOUND MY CALLING. The people who started the program Rick and Sue are amazing human beings. I can't wait to help them fight this growing problem. I get to work with legal professionals, and work on expanding this program, and hopefully rescuing some girls from a life of sexual abuse. He also is helping me network with DA's and really believes in me. Life is really coming together y'all.

Also I was given the opportunity to be a lead volunteer with a bestie, Mackie for the center of student action. What a great opportunity, I truly feel blessed beyond measure. Javier believed I had a strong will to volunteer, and loved my personality, along with mackie, which duh she's great. So now we get to help get volunteers, help organize events, and facilitate them. The best part, I get to serve and get to know this wonderful community, that I now get to call home.

All in all the memories I'm making haven't stopped, and life is good.

I hope God is working in your lives as well, and if you feel like he isn't I bet he is. Keep on talking with him, growing with him, and just doing life. Cause that wonderful man God, he works overtime every dang day. But anyways I hope your laughing, admiring nature, getting good coffee, and have a good show to watch, all the good things ya know. Peace & Love everyone <3

-Aspy

Also the prayer corner is SOOOO beautiful def my fav spot on West Campus

Pt 2 of so BEAUTIFUL