new year=improved me

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First can I just say, can we throw out the saying "new year new me" this year? we don't need to be totally different people, just need to improve and widen our goals for the new year!!

With that being said I have a lot of new goals, and things I would like to work on for myself.

First, before Christmas break I made a vow to myself to push myself out of my comfort zone despite my insecurities. I am worthy, and now that I am starting to explore that. still working on that one though so to be continued

Which brings me to goal number 2, I am not going to let others opinions affect how I view myself. I have come to the realization that I am a Starbucks iced toasted white chocolate mocha, and some people are caffeine free and prefer hot chocolate lol. But in all seriousness not everyone is going to like me, and I can not please everyone, and I can't always hold myself to these impossible standards. So from now on the only person who's opinion is going to affect how I see myself is God's, because honestly its exhausting trying to be what everyone wants me to be.

Third, I want to be more aware. I want to stop being so goal driven and take things day by day and hour by hour so I don't overlook the great things in my life everyday. I want to never let a compliment go unsaid. I want to smile at people when I go down cougar walk. I want to check up on my friends and family weekly if not daily. I want to listen more and talk less, because sometimes i'm too much of an extrovert and don't know how to shhhhh. I want to pray more, meditate more, and just devote more time to having conversations with God. I just want to love the people around me more deeply, because time is so so so precious.

Fourth, I want to work out more because Freshman 15 is REAL, I am living proof lol. Not saying that gaining weight is bad because its not in fact I wanted to gain some weight. But if this year i'm working on myself emotionally and spiritually then I need my body to be keeping up and being healthy too.

I want to let loose more. I want to go outside and hammock or hike or take a walk. I wanna dance in my room till 2 am. I want to lay oit on Trinity lawn and talk all night with my friends. I want to go night swimming. And have beach days. I want to make sure that I'm still thriving even when school is getting stressful or i'm having a rough time.

These are just things that I have saw in myself or around me that I want to improve and make better for myself and those around me. I feel like overall I just want to be overwhelmingly kind in all aspects of my life whether it be to myself or others around me.

Some highlights in 2019 already: My first missions trip to Greece, My future stepmom and dad's wedding in September, and my mom visiting in April. woot woot!!!

2019 already has so many new great things in store and I can't wait to see what else.

I hope y'all all go in to 2019 with new dreams, hopes, butterflies, and positivity. I can't wait to see how this next year will transform us all.

xoxo Aspen

*** also please be safe on NYE and New Year's day, driving drunk is not worth taking someones life <3

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